I'm FINALLY in my Second Trimester!

13 Week pregnant belly pic...only gained 6 lbs but found a belly bump when I woke up this morning!

14 Week belly bump.

Much has happened since my last post. Jason and I have gone our seperate ways, I couldn't handle his immaturity any longer. I felt like he was incapable of respecting my clear and consise boundaries and needs. I broke up with him on January 5, 2009. He promptly informed me that he was planning to sign away his parental rights to my child. He doesn't even want visitaion fr Madyson. I'm really sad that all of this has hurt her. I wish that there was something I could do to make it all better, but alas since she is not my child I have no recourse to provide her with visitation rights. I will try to see if her mother, Heather, is willing to allow Mady to visit with the baby. I did meet with two lawyers and have decided to hire one in particular.

On January 8. 2009 I had my first and only bleeding episode. It was bright red blood, a lot more than spotting. It disapated quickly yet scared me to death. Luckily I had my doppler and was able to find my baby's heart beat at 165 beats per minute. This provided me with enough comfort to make it through the night. I never told my grandfather about the episode since I don't want him to feel guilty for asking me to help him the day before.

January 9, 2009 I had a really quick ultrasound and doctor's visit, both of which were normal. No reason for the bleeding was found, but my peanut has turned into a jumping bean. It was kicking it's leg all the way up to the top of my uterus from the bottom and kicking the placenta, then body slamming the placenta. Here's the ONLY pic I got from the ultrasound.

My next scan is on February 23, for my level two ultrasound. I should be able to find out the baby's gender at this appointment! I so can't wait to know how to start shopping. If baby is a girl several women have offered me their children's things. I am still hoping and praying for a baby girl, but I will love a son just as much.

I will try to keep you all updated!

12 Weeks Pregnant

December 31, 2008: Met with the high risk OB the appointment was 3 hours long, and I really loved the doctor. He took the time to not only assess my medical history and risks to the pregnancy but to explain what medications were safe and what routes we'd take to control back pain throughout the pregnancy. I had a sequential screening done, the ultrasound itself took an hour because the baby keep bouncing around my belly, the poor ultrasound tech had to chase the baby all around my belly. My baby's heart rate was 165 bpm.

Here's the pics.

Baby is looking at you and waving.

Baby's profile

Baby full profile...you can see feet and hands if you look carefully.

Don't know what this pic is supposed to be but they were measuring the uterus.

9-11 weeks Pregnant

It feels like just yesterday that I saw my baby for the first time on ultrasound, it's so hard to believe that it has been almost three weeks! So much has happened both joyous and heartwrenching.

Grandpap was rushed to the hospital in diabetic shock, and turns out he had spinal menengitis. I rushed to NC from Gallaudet (DC) to ensure he recieved adequate care. He was so not himself that it was difficult to watch. I missed a final, and could only stay for 2 days then I had to return home and mom came down to sit with him so I could do my ART final.

At exactly 10 weeks pregnant, December 17, 2008, I heard the most astonishing, precious sound in the world...my baby's heart beat on doppler. I had purchased a medical grade doppler for at home when I began to suspect something was wrong with the last pregnancy, but it arrived after the miscarriage had been confirmed. It was amazing to be able to use it at home and hear my baby. I was so excited I took the time to record the heart beat and sent it to nearly every single person I know including Jason.

Thursday was Christms and we finally told Madyson about the baby, she was the only person we know that didn't know about the baby. I had bought her a T-shirt and had it printed with a little blonde haired princess and said "I'm going to be a big sister, Madyson." I was deeply hurt when she was so grumpy that she got clothing that she refused to read the shirt, and when Jason told her she smacked him several times. When she finally calmed down and it sunk in she turned to me and ask "you are?" I shook my head yes giggling. She then turned to Jason and asked "her is?" I took video of it but I need to edit it so that everyone doesn't have to see Madyson beating up her father.

I scheduled an ultrasound at the Baby Preview Company in Reading Pa on Saturday, February 21, 2009 which he and Madyson can go to, and hopefully we'll find out the gender.

Baby's First Pictures

Baby's First picture. December 8, 2009. You are almost 1 inch long, and according to the doctor you're "PERFECT" Your heart rate was 178 and it was so loud you couldn't miss it! Mommy was so extremely worried because today was the exact day your brother or sister died...8 weeks and 5 days. I love your doctor she's so much fun, but I have to see all the doctors in the practice. Your daddy didn't make it to the appointment he got stuck in traffic so didn't have a chance to meet mommy and auntie lynn at 2:30, then got lost at the hospital. I was sad, but he'll get to see you in March. We did have a huge fight about it.

I was too awake to sleep after your first ultrasound so I created this LOL!

2 Months!

So, it's official as of tomorrow I am 8 weeks pregnant. I'm so happy that this pregnancy is progressing relatively easily. I'm still not experiencing much in the way of morning sickness, just some infrequent nausea, and to date, no vomitting. I still am experiencing an array of other pregnancy symptoms. Most predominant right now is my extreme fatigue, which is leading to some hormonal outbursts when my sleep is interrupted. Class has been extremely tough this week, alls I want to do is sleep! Grandpap was up visiting from NC for Thanksgiving, I have not told him yet, as I want to see that everything is okay on the ultrasound December 8th. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving at Lynn and John's house, although the drive there with the ham in the trunk almost made me vomit. Yesterday, December 1, 2008, was my first OB appointment. I saw the most wonderful OB nurse, her name was Anne. She took all the time I needed to do an extensive medical and family history, and we even giggled about her running out of paper. She discussed testing options for genetic disorders with me and explained Madyson's birth defect in terms that I understand, which up until this point I had not. She then gave me a bunch of booklets and some nice freebies from Similac, oh and I almost forgot...TWO blood test slips. I then went to Quest Diagnositcs and got tested for everything thing under the sun from diabetes to cystic fibrosis. I hopefully will get all the test results next Monday, December 8, when I have the ultrasound done and meet with Dr. Black. The only thing I do not like about my OBGYN, College Heights, is that it is a NINE doctor practice, and I must see all of them, oh and I won't know who will deliver my baby until the day comes! OH well can't have everything! I praise God every day, many times a day, when I see there is no spotting. Anne told me I will be considered High Risk, but that as long as there is no spotting, nor any cramps that continue or are intolerable all seems well. What a comfort!

5 weeks pregnant

Well this week has been considerably tougher than last week. I'm completely exhausted, and cranky. Still no morning sickness yet, which kind of scares me. My breasts are becoming increasingly more sore, and the trips to the bathroom are becoming so frequent that I plan to move my bed into the bathroom...ok not literally but it's a good idea.

I told my mom about the pregnancy, and her reaction was about what I expected, but really harsh. She asked me "how dumb can you be?" She was mostly pissed off that I won't be able to help with farm work. I don't know I'm sad she can't be more supportive.

4 Weeks Pregnant

1 month pregnant

Do you see what I see...it's so faint it's hard to tell!

OK, no denying that one!

Damn things die after a day!

So, it's official...I'm pregnant with number 2. I was so sure I was pregnant on Monday, November 3, 2008 that I held my pee and ran to Walmart in Bechtelsville. I bought a 5 pack of digital pregnancy tests, paid for them and immediately went to the bathroom. I was saddened to see the display when it flashed "Not Pregnant." I left walmart with my head hanging low and texted Jason to let him know that we did not need to "worry." Then...Tuesday I was so crampy I told everyone on BabyGaga that they could count me out...there was no way I was pregnant with all these cramps.

In my evening class on the 4th I began noticing even the smallest smells, like Delia's lollipop, were making me sick, so I decided to test again. When I saw that FAINT!! pink line show up on the Answer test I flipped sending it to everyone on BabyGaga to make sure I wasn't seeing things that weren't there. Still not convinced I ran out to the car and grabbed the box of digital tests...and there it was "PREGNANT" I'm so happy, yet very scared at the same time. I know I can live through a miscarriage and handle the emotions that come with it, but I want a baby to love and hold in my arms not just my heart. I sent Jason a picture message with the first test, and he was like..."I don't see it, try again on Friday." So, I sent him the second one, and he was soo happy.

On Wed. I called the OB and scheduled an appt. I was shocked when they said they didn't want to see me til I was 8 weeks...even the shitty doc I had the last time didn't make me wait THAT long...ugh, worse yet...no ultrasound til week 9 grrr.

Starting Thursday, the morning sickness greatly improved, which made me kind of worried! I would rather be as sick as a dog and KNOW everything is progressing. Oh well, I guess I'll have to wait and see. I'm still taking tests cause I can't believe it's true, and I want to see that line get darker. Called PCP to get bloodwork for Beta HcG ordered.

Saturday, had Beta HcG done...had to drive all the way to Elverson YUCK!

Sunday night I noticed slight leaking of colostrum, only one drop but it was kinda shocking to be happening so early!

It's so hard not telling the world, although I think most people already know or are in the process of figuring it out. Friday when I was snuggling with Madyson I held my belly so she wouldn't jump on it. After about 10 mins of snuggling she pushed my hand out of the way and stuck her tiny hand there, it was so cute I almost blabbed the news, and daddy wasn't even there!