4 Weeks Pregnant

1 month pregnant

Do you see what I see...it's so faint it's hard to tell!

OK, no denying that one!

Damn things die after a day!

So, it's official...I'm pregnant with number 2. I was so sure I was pregnant on Monday, November 3, 2008 that I held my pee and ran to Walmart in Bechtelsville. I bought a 5 pack of digital pregnancy tests, paid for them and immediately went to the bathroom. I was saddened to see the display when it flashed "Not Pregnant." I left walmart with my head hanging low and texted Jason to let him know that we did not need to "worry." Then...Tuesday I was so crampy I told everyone on BabyGaga that they could count me out...there was no way I was pregnant with all these cramps.

In my evening class on the 4th I began noticing even the smallest smells, like Delia's lollipop, were making me sick, so I decided to test again. When I saw that FAINT!! pink line show up on the Answer test I flipped sending it to everyone on BabyGaga to make sure I wasn't seeing things that weren't there. Still not convinced I ran out to the car and grabbed the box of digital tests...and there it was "PREGNANT" I'm so happy, yet very scared at the same time. I know I can live through a miscarriage and handle the emotions that come with it, but I want a baby to love and hold in my arms not just my heart. I sent Jason a picture message with the first test, and he was like..."I don't see it, try again on Friday." So, I sent him the second one, and he was soo happy.

On Wed. I called the OB and scheduled an appt. I was shocked when they said they didn't want to see me til I was 8 weeks...even the shitty doc I had the last time didn't make me wait THAT long...ugh, worse yet...no ultrasound til week 9 grrr.

Starting Thursday, the morning sickness greatly improved, which made me kind of worried! I would rather be as sick as a dog and KNOW everything is progressing. Oh well, I guess I'll have to wait and see. I'm still taking tests cause I can't believe it's true, and I want to see that line get darker. Called PCP to get bloodwork for Beta HcG ordered.

Saturday, had Beta HcG done...had to drive all the way to Elverson YUCK!

Sunday night I noticed slight leaking of colostrum, only one drop but it was kinda shocking to be happening so early!

It's so hard not telling the world, although I think most people already know or are in the process of figuring it out. Friday when I was snuggling with Madyson I held my belly so she wouldn't jump on it. After about 10 mins of snuggling she pushed my hand out of the way and stuck her tiny hand there, it was so cute I almost blabbed the news, and daddy wasn't even there!